Im happy but there is a heavy feeling of sadness in my heart that I just can't remove. Why am I like this?

The sadness was still there.

But no matter what I read or practiced, I could never make the sadness budge for longer than a few fleeting moments - and even then, it was likely due to me being distracted from the sensation of sadness rather than anything actually shifting.

Needless to say, my failed attempts to fix my sadness simply brought me more pain and suffering.

How many of you have had your parental rights taken away because of lies and no truth whatsoever, and did you prove the lies that were told about you to be false either through drug testing or another way, but still had your rights taken?

I was tired of trying and failing.

Your job is not to be the manager of your life, but the one who discovers yourself fully.

It’s here now, writing to you.

As a teacher, what's the most inappropriate experience you've had with a student?

So I finally threw my hands up and said something to the tune of “fuck it, since I can't seem to change, I’ll just be whatever I am then.”

So if you are sad - like me - then be sad.

This interpretation lead me on a path of self improvement, to fix what I considered to be “wrong” with myself.

What disturbed you today?

It’s difficult to put into words exactly what caused what, but to the best of my ability to describe it, I felt as if my will to keep fighting was beaten right out of me.

It’s the most beautiful and liberating thing in the world.

You are the masterpiece you came here to discover.

Why is fitness important?

It wasn’t until about 10 years ago that I finally fell out of that ferris wheel of trying and failing to fix myself.

In the absence of a should, I was free to be as I am.

What I am trying to say is that when you stop trying to change yourself into something you are not, you give yourself the gift of discovering yourself as you already are.

Why do atheists not love a G-d that does not stop punishing them harder and harder in this world and the next until they surrender to Him?

I was tired of fighting.

Without resistance, sadness has a sense of beauty and depth I cannot find otherwise in life.

Be who you already are.

What is your juiciest sex story?

You are like me, then.

For much of my adult life, I interpreted this sadness as something being wrong - with either myself or my life in general.

What most people don’t know unless they’ve looked more closely is that there is also an element of deep, profound sadness that has always been with me since as long as I can remember.

Why did my 2001 4.6 liter Mustang GT V8 make "only" 260 HP while today's base Dodge 3.6 liter V6 churns out almost 300 HP? Both benefit from fuel injection and ECUs.

But unlike before, there is no more resistance to the sadness.

And the sadness?

Now, this may sound like a story of failure and giving up, but it’s actually a story of liberation.

How should one handle a situation where they suspect their partner of cheating, but their partner denies it and claims it is all in their head?

When I stopped trying to force myself to be something I am not, I gave myself the freedom of being who I am.

It’s still here.

Most people that know me would probably describe me as a social, happy, and somewhat quirky person with a twisted sense of humor.

How do you relax?

I had run out of hope.

It’s impossible to overstate the freedom and peace I discovered, and I realized the only one who had been keeping those from me was… me and my imagined standards and expectations for how I had imagined I should be.